Oh, You.

"Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall" Psalms 55:22

Man oh man. God is funny. He really really is. He just loves watching me get anxious. All the while he is sitting on his little (well massive i'm sure) with his arms crossed, smiling and shaking his head. Every one and in awhile letting out a hardy belly laugh and saying "Mikela, Why don't you trust me".

So, I've dedicated two whole blogs to my college stress. While I was at Passion I told God I would let him do his thing, and whatever he wanted me to do, I would do. Well today I got a call from my admission counselor from DBU and he was just asking me questions about what my plans were and I was asking him questions about how on Earth I was ever going to pay for college. Of course the subject got me teary eyed. But I held back the tears and I just prayed "God, I'm just going to cast my anxiety at your feet. I'm not going to let myself get anxious over this. I will go where ever you want me to go. But I just want to go if I should pursue missionary work, or get a degree at a university, or just go to community college?"

So then I get up. I decide I'm going to be productive. Then I decide that getting a hair cut will encourage me to be more productive. I come back, with no intentions of being productive, then I see an envelope from HBU. And I'm like how did I miss this? I open it..and inside is a scholarship for 42,000 dollars. My mouth dropped. Thats twice as much as DBU offered me. Not only that but because HBU is so close I could still live at home. (Which wasn't desirable to me at first, but now I've come to terms). Then I checked my email and they told me to check my husky account, and I had apparently earned 2 grants I didn't know about. We did the math, and I would only end up having to pay 2,500 dollars. And I wouldn't even have to pay that because there is this loan called finish on time, that my dear Sara Mattingly told me about, which gives about 3,000 dollars a semester. And if I graduate on time, then I get to keep all the money as a grant and I dont have to pay it back. SWEEEEEET :)

I'm seriously soo happy things are finally start to fall into place :) I know Sara that if your reading this your probably upset I wont be going to DBU with you :'( I am too. But this way I don't have to graduate in debt, and that is the biggest relief.